Ooo Baby

"After a few years of marriage a man can look right at a woman without seeing her and a woman can see right through a man without looking at him." ~Helen Rowland

Married over 4 years, and lately thinking that my husband sees me as a multi-functional home appliance rather than a wife or lover. He surprised me Saturday - not only going into Chapters, but picking out these out-of-the-blue gifts:

Quicksilver - Neal Stephenson

The Border: Canada, the U.S. and Dispatches from the 49th Parallel - James Laxer

Canadian Law Dictionary

I guess he pays more attention than I give him credit for. For a man with an aversion to reading anything not 4x4 related, or a mechanical manual, he has a knack for picking out something that I would choose for myself.
He got more lovin than he expected to get this weekend. Way more.

The Terrorist in the Mirror

The Terrorist in the Mirror

Noam Chomsky's speech at the Amnesty International Annual Lecture hosted by TCD, delivered at Shelbourne Hall, the Royal Dublin Society, January 18, 2006.

Dogma

All we want is a headrush.
All we want is to get out of our skin for a while.
We have nothing to lose because we don't have anything.
Anything we want anyway....

We used to hate people.
Now we just make fun of them.
It's more effective that way.

We don't live.
We just scratch on day to day.
With nothing but matchbooks and sarcasm in our pockets,
And all we are waiting for is for something worth waiting for.

Let's admit America gets the celebrities we deserve.
Let's stop saying "Don't quote me" because if no one quotes you,
You probably haven't said a thing worth saying.

We need something to kill the pain of all that nothing inside.
We all just want to die a little bit.

We fear that pop-culture is the only culture we're ever going to have.
We want to stop reading magazines.
Stop watching T.V.
Stop caring about Hollywood.
But we're addicted to the things we hate.

We don't run Washington and no one really does.
Ask not what you can do for your country,
Ask what your country did to you.

The only reason you're still alive is because someone
Has decided to let you live.

We owe so much money we're not broke we're broken.
We're so poor we can't even pay attention.

So what do you want?
You want to be famous and rich and happy,
But you're terrified you have nothing to offer this world.
Nothing to say and no way to say it,
But you can say it in three languages.

You are more than the sum of what you consume.
Desire is not an occupation.
You are ultimately thrilled and desperate,
Skyhigh and fucked.

Let's stop praying for someone to save us and start saving ourselves.
Let's stop this and start over.
Let's go out - let's keep going.

This is your life - this is your fucking life.

We need something to kill the pain of all that nothing inside.

Quit whining you haven't done anything wrong because frankly,
You haven't done much of anything.

Someone's writing down your mistakes.
Someone's documenting your downfall.

KMFDM

Life is unfair

"The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating...


...and you finish off as an orgasm."

George Carlin

Today I...

1) Picked up an unexpected final paycheck from my latest shitty job venture.
2) Browsed through Chapters and picked up:

The Golden Ratio (The Story of Phi) by Mario Livio
No Logo : Taking Aim at the Brand Bullies, by Naomi Klein

3) Got approved for my OSAP (Ontario student loan), and completed registration for Paralegal studies.

Pretty good day so far. Now to see if I can get laid tonight.

Patterns

Tony Iommi (featuring Serj Tankian) 2000

Patterns

Life is a story
Go ahead and find your sight

Life is your glory
Go ahead and live the night

But to live means to be here
In the present now
Do try to bow for the gift of your day
Then you cede to the morning sun

Pretending that we live doesn't make us alive

Life is a story
Go ahead and find your sight

But to live means to be here
In the present now
Do try to bow for the gift of your day
Then you cede to the morning sun

Pretending that we see doesn't give us the sight
Pretending that we live doesn't make us alive

What is it that makes us lose sight
True sight, of what is real and essential
I'll take organized patterns of chaos
Over the chaotic organizations of man, any day

Pretending that we see doesn't give us the sight
Pretending that we live doesn't make us alive
Pretending that we see doesn't give us the sight
Pretending that we live doesn't make us alive